I decided to start over.
For months, the everyday chaos has gotten into me. I always find myself coping with a long list of demands & priorities. Do you sometimes experience moments when everything seem to happen simultaneously? And you just want to shout – How can I possibly get everything done? Honestly, it made me feel tired and helpless.
For a while, my daily life left me with no room for my needs. Waking up would always be “I just need to do, what I need to do.” Then one day, I decided to change things a bit. I let go of some, to focus on those that matters most. I also made sacrifices for sanity’s sake. I’m glad I made this decision before things got worse.
Slowly, I was able to find time to breathe. I started reframing my thoughts to help me move forward and make the right choices. It is also during self-reflection that I realized that I need to continue dreaming & doing the things I love despite life’s chaos. In the process, I looked back on the list of my heart’s desires and found one thing that I’m missing – Blogging.
I almost gave up on blogging, if not because of you.
You see, my blog has become an important part of my life because it helped me understand myself more. It is my source of self-expression and my way of connecting to people with similar interests. Blogging taught me discipline and the road to finding my calling.
Despite these benefits, there are also moments when I felt apprehensive about blogging. I worry too much about criticisms, failures and expectations. I started comparing myself to others and felt I wasn’t good enough.
Do you recall a time in your life when you try to make excuses because you were afraid?
It happened to me the past months when I started making excuses to hold off things that made me happy. I felt tied up with fear, failure and comparison. I let all these feelings take over.
One day, I stopped wasting my time and energy getting lost. Whenever I receive love messages from you, I realized that I have no excuse because I have everything I need to realize my full potential. I don’t need to be afraid because I’m blessed in many ways. I also have to accept that failure will always be part of every new adventure, so might as well treat it like my life’s mentor.
There were moments when I wasn’t putting in the time to write because I felt no one was reading my blog. So why bother? Eventually, I became L-A-Z-Y. So I unlearned this bad habit before I went back to blogging.
I prepared myself – invested time in learning and found ways to grow my blog. I know I haven’t learned everything yet, but I look forward to great things that can happen for me and my blog.
Practice! Practice! Practice!
As they say, you can’t go wrong with practice & perseverance. If we want to be good at something, then we should be willing to do it over and over. I spent few minutes every day writing until it became a habit. I’m still not good at writing, but I hope I’ll get there someday.
On instances when I’m tempted to hold back, I remind myself of the reason I’m doing this. Then, I bounce back.
I’m a VERY shy and private person.
Sometimes, I envy those bloggers that grow their platforms. How do they do it? Then I realized it is not just producing something good, but it is also through the relationships that they had built over time.
Somehow I need to start getting myself out there and meet people. That’s why I told myself, “Courage my dear, It’s time to move to your courage zone.”
If you’re reading this now, will you let me know if I’m helping you pursuit wholeness and a joyful life? 🙂
Sorry it took a while.
I have to step back so I can pay attention to the lessons life is teaching me. I used to think I can handle everything that life throws at me. But I can’t. Sometimes, we really need to take that meaningful pause to get things right and find time for “me”.
Thank you for the love messages that continuously make my heart smile. And thank you again for patiently waiting for me.
I’m glad I’m back and ready to share more!
Have a F.un A.nd B.eautiful week everyone!